November 15, 2006

I have a confession. I truly despise someone I’ve never even met. Truly. Every thing I read about or from this person makes my head spin.

Is it the over the top arrogance of assuming that This Individual (TI) has the ability to “know” exactly what every person should and should not believe? Is it the unbridled and tactless descriptions of personal moments of bliss?

But I still randomly go back to read on TI’s blog.

Maybe I like being pissed. Latent agression and all that. I wonder what it is really about this person that effects me so profoundly.

Is it because I can’t believe that someone is honestly “all that”? Or maybe I’m just jealous because I can’t be. Maybe because I think TI talks down to everyone in this smarmy ingratiating tone. Maybe.

I don’t know.

But I’ll probably go read there later today. Nothing like a good dose of negative emotion to keep me focused and on task.

Oh, but don’t worry. It’s not your blog. 🙂

  • Pablo

    Are you sure it’s not my blog..?

  • Roci

    Don’t hate me because I’m Beautiful.

  • ajw308

    Who are you talking about?

  • heidi

    I’m not talking about anyone on my blogroll. I think you all are fantastic.

    And I can’t say anymore about who. I was just venting publically.

    To go into greater detail would be bitchy and would personalize the whole thing.

    Simply put, hasn’t anyone else experienced this “phenomenon”? Or am I the only one?

  • digitalcowboy

    I think I could guess who you are talking about. Whether I’m right or not, I’ve certainly had similar feelings about a blog we probably all know.

    And I happen to know I’m not the only one. In fact, I was just discussing it with someone in IM when I read this post, copied and pasted the first two paragraphs and said, “Think this is about X?”

    The difference for me is that I initially kept going back for the spectacle. Then I reached a limit and stopped the masochism. I hadn’t thought about that blog or person for a very long time until a link elsewhere this morning reminded me and I realized how pleasant it had been to forget.

    There’s certainly no call for jealousy. I’ve found that braggarts are rarely honest and arrogance always points to a deep insecurity. I say that as someone who’s often accused of arrogance. But I’m just misunderstood.

    Oh, and the response I got in IM (before even revealing where it came from): “Yes. I think so.” After I disclosed the source that answer was followed by, “Or is she talking about you.” haha

  • heidi

    I say that as someone who’s often accused of arrogance. But I’m just misunderstood.

    Oh, I hear that!

    And of course I wouldn’t be talking about you. You would have to post more often to be viewed as smarmy. 😉

  • Billy D

    It’s me isn’t it?
    I’m sorry. I’m a bad bad man.

  • heidi

    Billy, you just want to be a bad man! You know you are one of my favorites. Right up there with everyone else. 😉