January 14, 2007

When there’s nothing left to do but pray….

When situations don’t make sense and clear conversation seems impossible. Then I pray. And play the piano. Somehow an orderly progression of sound and melody helps organize my brain.

My brain is looking for a solution but there only seems to be a cascade of thoughts with no end in sight.

So I pray. Short, single word prayers seeming more like gasps for air than eloquent exchange. I dissolve into silence and listen to breathing. In and out.

I don’t often find myself in the center of a situation where the solution is elusive. That’s my M.O. I problem solve. But yet here I am. Without a fix-it.

Every answer only brings more questions. Every question opens doors to one more observation I don’t want to give credence to. In the quest for truth sometimes you have to look at life from angles that are not comfortable. You have to be willing to challenge the status quo and risk your life turning up side down.

So I pray. And hope for the best while preparing for the worst. And I have no idea what either of those look like. I’m in a fog.

Need more input! There are factors missing, components misplaced, data incomplete.

  • Erik

    Short, single word prayers seeming more like gasps for air than eloquent exchange.

    Boy, if that isnt me right there.

    I hope you find/get what you are looking for.

  • Serena

    Hey, I’ll add my “HELP!!!!” to yours. I’m glad He is faithful and does answer us in time.

    Love and shalom,

  • Pablo

    Ditto. If you share some details, maybe we can all throw in our two cents, and then you’d have, like, at least a buck!

  • MikeT

    There are days where I wish that I could just go without problem solving. Sometimes it just makes your brain hurt…