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Minimizing Bondage…Maximizing Freedom

July 6, 2008

That’s my new mantra.

it’s amazing how much freedom can be found after a simple phone call. Decades of expectations and hopes go up in smoke and the stark realization that you really are as unimportant and inconvenient as you always imagined you might be can bring an unprecedented amount of liberation to a confused soul.

I will never be good enough. Smart enough. Spiritual enough. Relevant enough. So why the hell did I try so hard for so long?

I’m good in a way… but who wants me in the way?

And now it’s no longer my problem or burden to carry.

That took 34 years to figure out so I guess I will take the next 34 and just decide who is vitally important to me and how much I can enjoy them.

The only ones who really qualify are going on a walk with me tonight.

Won’t that be grand?

  • Free at last, free at last..!

    The fact that you’re saddened by the way these people treated you tells me you’re the kind of person who cares. The fact that they treated you that way tells me they aren’t.

    You’re better off without them, cold-hearted as that may sound. Keep your husband and your children close to you, and maybe one or two friends. Everyone else is just an acquaintance. Really.

  • Free at last, free at last..!

    The fact that you’re saddened by the way these people treated you tells me you’re the kind of person who cares. The fact that they treated you that way tells me they aren’t.

    You’re better off without them, cold-hearted as that may sound. Keep your husband and your children close to you, and maybe one or two friends. Everyone else is just an acquaintance. Really.

  • Before my dad died I asked him “Dad what if you get to Heaven and God tells you you didn’t have to do most of what you did?” He couldn’t answer. I think a lot of us are like that not just about our faith life but about everything. We forget to “Be still and know that He is God”.

  • Pearls before swine. There does come a time to count your losses. You don’t seem like the type that can just care from a distance, you have to be all in or all out. I am one of the fortunate few who can be compassionate, serve, care, etc. but not be devastated when people turn out to be something other than what they represented themselves as, especially in ministry.

    But, as you’ve discovered, at some point, you need your freedom from certain people and there’s no reason to feel guilty for cutting someone off when it’s warranted.

  • Pearls before swine. There does come a time to count your losses. You don’t seem like the type that can just care from a distance, you have to be all in or all out. I am one of the fortunate few who can be compassionate, serve, care, etc. but not be devastated when people turn out to be something other than what they represented themselves as, especially in ministry.

    But, as you’ve discovered, at some point, you need your freedom from certain people and there’s no reason to feel guilty for cutting someone off when it’s warranted.

  • momma dragon

    hey…….I don’t think you are unimportant or inconvenient. Just so you know – I love you and miss you.
    always……… no matter what…..we are sisters.

  • Nachooooo

    I found this blog address on my tv computer. You need to incorperate Prophecy update in this stuff, I know of a great couple of guy who know a ton of stuff in this area. The Brian and John show! Blog on Dude!