You’re Ok, I’m not Ok…

October 14, 2008

It’s been a rough year for me.   Well, a rough couple of years actually.    And this last weekend I hit the wall.  Running.   Brick wall.   Yeah…

Although my life is extremely simple compared to many, I am needing to simplify more and more and focus on the things that are the absolute barest essentials to my life.

When I examined what I could change I came up with this list:   Job, extra-curricular, social and spiritual involvment.

What that means is this… I gave my notice at the barn on Sunday, I’m looking at place tomorrow where I might be selling my little mare and I won’t be interacting much outside of essential communication with a few select people.   Oh and the only “church” interaction is going to be whenever we go as a family.

I know this sounds extreme but I’ve spent a lot of years being really busy and focused on a lot of other things and I’m seeing some behavioral, spiritual and developmental issues with my kidlets that is concerning to me. Not ginormous, but I don’t want  these issues to become more than a bump in the road… Ya know?  I’m not spending as much time schooling as I need to be and I am also not as available for our home business as I need to be…

The good news is that the one outlet I’m not going to be changing is here.   In fact, I would like to be writing a lot more than I have been.  Unfortunately I probably won’t have as much material as I used to since I’m turning into a hermit.

I’m so excited!!!!  I don’t usually like people all that much.  I have a few I like and a few I need and don’t really have a lot of interest in the rest.   I like solitude and routine.  I’ve had neither for a long, long time

Hey!  Maybe now I will actually get to read the Bible on a regular basis and not just as triage when life gets hairier than I can handle.  Wouldn’t that be great!!!!

  • Back to the basics, it’s been my life style choice for almost 2 years now. No regrets at all. Slowing down, enjoying what’s given to me as it’s being giving, appreciating MORE, loving STRONGER, listening OFTEN…

    Nice choice cute brain! Congrats 🙂

  • When I started to read the post, I was afraid that the conclusion would be that you were abandoning the blog! I am so happy to hear that is not the case.

    I have also had the urge to simplify, but so far I am not able to do so. And for me, the writing is like breathing so I don’t foresee letting blogging go any time in the near future. I have some things to complete first, mostly in my job and in my church, but I am looking forward to a day when simplifying will be possible. For now I will content myself to reading about your efforts.

    Go forth and simplify!

  • julie Thompson

    Wow, I’m so glad that you’re at a place where you can reprioritize and simplify. It is my aim to do the same. When I’m not sure. Your family will enjoy having their mom and wife back and you will begin to invest into the most important treasures you’ve been given your husband and sons. You are doing the right thing as long as you don’t shut me or the rest of your family out. I was surprised you were getting rid of your horse. However, sometimes the pleasure is lost in all the responsibility and work of caring for your hobbie. I love you dearly and look forward to hearing how your life is going with the simple pleasures of life. Live , Laugh and love. Your Jewel

  • Big Cat

    Doing what’s best for you and your family is always the first order of business. Gotta take care of your well being before you can even consider careing for someone else. God knows your needs and will provide. We will be here listening if you want to talk.